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Mar 042014
 

Who are you?

You are not your body!
You are not your arms, legs, brain, muscles, face, heart, kidneys, fat or skinny, healthy or sick, fully functional or disabled. You are given a body as a means of interacting with the physical world. You are aware of your body but you are not your body. Like a pilot of an airplane, or a driver of a car – you are behind the controls. You control your body which allows both input and output. Input comes from the sense organs – hearing, seeing smelling, tasting and sensing – and output comes by talking, walking, using the hands etc’.

You are not your thoughts!
Your thoughts are yours, but they are not you. You are given the capacity to think, develop abstract ideas to benefit yourself, your society and your environment, but that’s not you. Here again, you are behind the controls, but you are not your brain or your mind.

You are not your emotions!
You can experience love, anger, sadness, jealousy and much more. Similar to thought, this is an ability that you are given and allowed to have. An ability doesn’t define who you are.

You are not a woman, not a man, not a son or daughter, not a father, mother, brother, sister uncle or aunt. Those are your circumstances and they do not define who or what you are.

You are not your history! Your history is your life’s story. It is a part of your circumstances but you are what you are beyond and regardless of any circumstances.

Your are not your ideas, opinions or beliefs. These are thoughts that you adopted and made yours, by your own choice. You made those yours, but what’s yours cannot be you.

You are not your occupation; scientist, politician, CEO, judge, banker, artist. This is again a choice you made to be directing your talents, time, curiosity and exploration for the purpose of earning money and (hopefully) grow spiritually.

You are not your family, society or any mutual interest group!
You are not African, American, German, Dutch, nor are you a member of any smaller group, such as a union, groups of mutual interests or any other group.

You are not your circumstances! You are not rich/poor, happy/unhappy, successful/unsuccessful, employed/unemployed, married/divorced/widowed, jailed/free, healthy/sick or any other circumstances.

Who are you?

YOU, are that which is left, after everything else has been removed.

When you completely stop everything – the doing, saying, listening, seeing, thinking, feeling, smelling, sensing etc’, even stop the attempt to stop – what’s left is you.
You are that which is aware! The silent observer.

This is very profound and it means a lot of different things, some of which can be put to words, but most cannot.
It is very important to understand that all of those things that we are not, do not define us, do not create gain or loss on the most fundamental level. We are a non physical entity. We are allowed to interact with the physical world and many confuse the interaction which is not us, with the awareness which IS. Many adopt their life’s story to be their definition of self. This opens the gate to much misery and suffering. We become like a leaf in the wind, tossed around, soaked, trampled and crushed; moving between highs and lows, becoming happy by a promotion, angered by criticism, saddened by loss etc’. We lose any sense of grounding and rootedness. We know no peace, are stuck in infinite closed-loop cycles of thought, behavior, habit and belief, looking at what other people do in order to know what directions are possible for us, and on and on and on.
But that’s not us.
And because it is not us, it is possible (as some people discover, usually following some trauma or catastrophe), possible to simply be aware – be the observer. The moment we realize that we are beyond our life’s story, circumstances and interactions – we become free. Free from “ourselves”.
This freedom is unlike any experience of physical-world freedom. We discover the non-physical entity that we are. When this happens, life ceases to be an endless struggle. In fact it becomes like the famous song:

Row, row, row your boat,
Gently down the stream
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
Life is just a dream

Life is suddenly seen as a dream – very realistic and convincing, yet just a dream. This is why people who are highly spiritually evolved, are said to be awakened.

Zhuangzi, a Chinese philosopher also known as Chuang Chou, once said:
Once upon a time, I, Chuang Chou, dreamt I was a butterfly, fluttering hither and thither, to all intents and purposes a butterfly. I was conscious only of my happiness as a butterfly, unaware that I was Chou. Soon I awaked, and there I was, veritably myself again. Now I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly, dreaming I am a man.

This is directly related with personal growth. We cannot experience growth before we know who we are. And since everything is in constant motion, when we don’t grow we become less. We contract, decrease, recede, become reduced and diminished. We shrink. Our world seems smaller, some even experience claustrophobia. And let us be clear; Growth is not a job promotion or a raise, it’s not a change in occupation, it’s not moving to a new neighborhood or a new country, it’s not undergoing plastic surgery, changing our name or finding new relationships. In fact, these are all ways to run away from that inner feeling of emptiness, lack and inadequacy. We convince ourselves that these external changes in circumstances are growth. They are not!  just as our circumstances are not who we are. When growth is experienced, it is a completely non-physical experience.

I can understand if some of you find his post confusing. Describing non-physical and spiritual phenomena through physical tools such as language, are akin to seeing the shadow of a beautiful painting – all that is seen is a dark rectangle. The only way to truly discover what’s behind all these words, is to completely stop everything – the doing, saying, listening, seeing, thinking, feeling, smelling, sensing etc’, to even stop the attempt to stop. In the silence and stillness that emerges, bit by bit, we discover who we are.

The next time that you find yourself complaining, suffering, when you are in the grips of physical pain, anger, stress, losing control or anything else that feels anything but wonderful –
ask yourself one fundamental question:

Who am I?

 

Feb 102014
 

Here is a tool for getting unstuck. From going around in circles, not finding answers or solutions, to effortlessly having the answer fall in our lap.


We’re familiar with seeing a question mark following a series of words that are to be understood as a question. Interestingly, questions in writing don’t really need to be terminated with a question mark, since they most often contain words that are known to be questions, such as: why, what, where, when, how. Or constructed as a question, as in:
Is it happening today (?)

Contemplating the entity of the question, I realized that there is a inquiring energy that is beyond any particular question; As if we were to have a question mark stand alone, without any words preceding it – an inquiring attitude – and it may or may not be equated with curiosity.

When we are stuck with a problem, we try to think in terms of a specific question or group of questions: Why is this happening, what am I not seeing, etc. When we do this, we create a sphere that is made of existing knowledge, understanding, experience, attitude, opinion etc, all from our past. This sphere is static. The questions seem to be rotating constantly in the same space without going anywhere.
I found that when I go beyond any specific question and simply enter a questioning state of mind, which I can also call ‘openness’, ‘allowing’, ‘inquiring state’ etc’, that instead of creating a sphere, I create motion. This motion expands out in all directions to infinity. When I do, I have no sense of being stuck – quite the opposite – I get a sense of traveling into the unknown and unfamiliar as well as becoming connected with something vast of infinite intelligence. This leads to unexpected results; Sometimes I come back with an answer. Sometimes, I come back with a question which becomes the key to the answer. Sometimes nothing happens, but a few days later the problem no longer exist.

It is interesting to note the way we use our voice when questioning: It opens out through a rising pitch. Body language and facial expression also reflect this expansion. Seeking is a motion of expansion outwards. This allows us to grow in heart, mind and spirit.

The opposite of this is dogma. An exclamation mark at the end of some words, exclaims an attitude of ‘That’s it’, ‘I am right’, ‘You are wrong’, etc’, in a way stating a fact. This so-called ‘fact’ may or may not be what its exclaimer believes. Many times we get stuck because of our own misunderstanding or limited understanding. Getting stuck repeatedly affects us detrimentally in heart, mind and spirit and is the cause of much unhappiness, quarrel, relationship problems, illness etc.

The attitude delineated by the exclamation mark creates an inward motion. This inward motion acts to disconnect us from growth. It causes our world to shrink, causing us to feel trapped, become paranoid, have panic attacks, feel claustrophobic etc’. The voice used in conjunction with the exclamation attitude is with the pitch coming down, similar to the inward motion – a closing. The facial and body muscles tend to tighten, a furthering of the closing that’s in an inward motion.

It’s interesting to see how many people with an expanding inner motion, seem to be happy, healthy, successful and loved, while many people with a contracting inner motion seem to be unhappy, fearful, feared of and lonely. This is by no means a “rule” but it can be seen quite often.

I found that the simple act of sitting and visualizing a question mark, without an attempt to achieve anything, becomes a light beam that takes me out of difficult circumstances – where my mind may even be working against me – allowing me to discover freedom beyond my current sphere of understating. I visualize the question mark without thinking any specific question, along with an attitude of allowing and openness. This creates a wonderful opening – a doorway leading towards relief, personal growth, and peace, which is then followed by a clear mind, renewed energy and effective, positive action.

Dec 172013
 

Stillness, Silence, Emptiness; The Abyss.

This is a special meditation for those who tried meditating in the past with very little success. It is very simple and very powerful. This connecting with stillness can be done at any time, especially very stressful situations that lead many of us to lose control, clarity and grounding and which could then lead to a panic attack or depression.  This practice generates powerful results regardless of the length of time put into it.


Sit comfortably and allow your body to be loose, including facial muscles.

Become aware of your breath and accompany each inhalation and exhalation with your awareness.

Towards the end of each inhalation pause for a moment before the following exhalation.
Towards the end of each exhalation pause for a moment before the following inhalation.
This should feel simple and easy, not strenuous. If it does feel strenuous, make sure that:

  • The pause is not long
  • You are not clenching the back of your throat, as if about to pronounce a ‘K’ or a ‘G’ sound.

The pausing should be done using the lungs, to stop moving air, and not with the throat, to squeeze and prevent air from passing. It should be a floating pause rather than a jamming pause.
It’s fine if there’s a minuscule amount of air passing, as long as there’s a general sense of a pause, as opposed to an ongoing breath.

Do this for a little while . . . 

Notice the stillness you experience during the pauses. It is utter silence – perfect stillness.

Do this for a while . . .

Notice how each inhalation and each exhalation are born from the stillness and die into stillness.

Do this for a while . . .

Notice how, as inhalation/exhalation is happening, stillness is constantly in the background, behind/below/underneath the breathing – it is ever-present, infinite, eternal.

Do this for a while . . .

As you become aware of the constant presence of stillness, both during pauses and during breathing, you can now eliminate the pauses and just breath naturally in and out. Remain aware of the stillness moment by moment.

The moment you begin to think, the stillness is lost. Thought is movement and noise. Stillness is utter silence. Stillness is ever present and infinite, even during thought, however thought pulls our awareness away from stillness and we lose the stillness during thought.

Avoid the pitfall: Trying.
Trying is a concept that should be abandoned. It keeps stillness away from us and out of reach. Just like trying to sleep: the harder we try, the longer we remain awake. There should be no trying at all, and no doing at all.
Instead, there should be a Letting-go and an Allowing.

When we become aware of stillness, an infinite abyss will begin to open and expand.
Do not be afraid. Not only will you not be hurt – you will be protected and guided; guided away from the elements in your life that hurt you (whether or not you are aware of them) and guided towards inner peace, calm, happiness, wellbeing, grounding and knowing. Again; Do not be afraid.

WARNING:
Do not practice while driving, operating machinery or other types of work that may risk your safety.